Considering the my last thoughts were anxiety filled, overwhelming, and questioning myself (again), I thought it was time to just keep this short and positiveish. It will be a while before I have the chance to write, grad school ending, surgery, a lot of decisions to make, before I know it, it will be fall, which will bring even more changes. So with a deep breath I will say that it has been quite the summer so far, and I'll sum it up shortly.
1. In a week, 6 credits of grad work will be under my belt. One step closer to my Masters in Counseling (and a bit of addition to my salary;)
2. Upcoming surgery August 11th. I pray all goes well,and that I am making the right decision. It's been a long time coming, medically necessary and I know I will feel so much better, it's something I can do for myself.
3. Lots of relaxing during the first part of summer, lots of running (pain free!), and lots of reading really good books.
4. Lots of stressing, major anxiety, and a lot left to figure out.
5. Getting ready to move out. Asserting my independence, is something I still struggle with, but I have to learn that its all going to be ok. I am adult now, and am capable of making informed adult decisions, with or without family support, I have to know I can do it.
6. Looking forward to catching up with people that I don't see often, somehow summer always slips away from me, and my free days seem few and far between. I hope people will realize that a big flaw of mine is not being able to balance. I value people in my life very much, and try to be very loyal and be a good friend, and I have to hope, at this point in my life, prolonged time and distance, doesn't get held against me. Instead, it makes you appreciate the time together that much more. I will become better at balance one day.
8. Lost my 15lbs I wanted to....a bit further to go, but a good start.
9. I love my new present to myself, my blackberry, and really don't know how I lived without it all this time.
10. Thankful for my grandparents, and while they struggle and have been sick a lot this summer, they are still here and alive, and that is more than most people have.
11. Extremely thankful, and grateful for good friends, who help pave the way for me to find myself, who I am, what I want, what is best for me and what I deserve. Their unconditional listening, understanding and support of me and their ways of always seeming to believe in me, more than I believe in myself, time and time again, makes me feel extraordinarily lucky and perhaps a bit hopeful, even on my worst day.
Till whenever....
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