Another fork in the road, you keep turning

I have hit several stumbling blocks, and I am none too happy about it. It was told to me once that you will be given the same situations and the same types of people will enter you life and you will make the same mistakes in different ways until you learn your lesson....I thought I had learned it...several of them...several times over. But, these obstacles still keep coming up...hitting me head on, as I try to grow as a person, I understand that it does not happen over night, and I know how much you have to learn in order to grow into the person you become, but a little success a long the way, a little sign from up above that I am doing the right thing, a little nudge saying keep going, a little you WILL be ok, a little you can do this from someone, somewhere, would be really helpful. I have been through so much and am currently going through a lot as well...and I just need there to be a path that says this is the right way, I thought I was on it, I felt good, better, changed....it takes so much to change yourself....a change of lifestyle, attitude, values, morals a new focus and I have tried so hard to do all of this, and I still seem to fall short. It is so easy to fall back into bad habits, why? Why do I feel so different from everyone else? Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I focus so much on the failure and not the accomplishment? Ugh, I am frustrated, and irritated and upset and angry. And I know those are ok emotions to have, I have to be ok with them, rational or irrational, they are what they are. But, I hope they are not sending the wrong message. I know I have come far, I have made great strides, but still so far to go, and I just need a bit of help....I hope something or someone comes along to help me trust I am doing the right thing, going the right way, changing my lifestyle in a positive way, seeing perspective and being a good person.

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The things you want are always possible; it is just that the way to get them is not always apparent. The only real obstacle in your path to a fulfilling life is you, and that can be a considerable obstacle because you carry the baggage of insecurities and past experience.

Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them. You will find that they haven't half the strength you think they have.

Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict.

With courage you will dare to take risks, have the strength to be compassionate, and the wisdom to be humble. Courage is the foundation of integrity.

You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something, build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete.

If you only look at what is, you might never attain what could be.