Friday, November 28, 2008

Someone

Someone

Creative Writing

ENG 503

Everyone wants a someone

It’s a basic human need

A someone is a friend, boyfriend, wife, husband, girlfriend, cousin, neighbor, it does not matter at all

Once you find your someone, they will not let you fall.

My someone came into my life by fate, a reunion by mere chance

And from that moment our relationship was like a choreographed dance

My someone made me happy and knew all the right things to say

We traced each other’s footsteps almost every day

I knew what my someone was thinking, and vise versa as well

It was a friendship story too perfect to tell

My someone saw something I never saw in myself

A sense of humor, intelligence, compassion and a life long friend

Something we knew would never end

My someone was my by side at the moment I was sad

And calmly told me, things aren’t so bad

I told my someone that I would always be a listening ear

And our conversations lasted for hours, often ending with a happy tear

We found everything we needed with each other’s company, we shared beliefs, morals, interests, goals, laughs and fears

My someone was someone whom no one compared

Through every note, hug, birthday, and shared memory each year

Our gratitude to each other was endless because this match was really quite rare

We knew each other better than we knew ourselves, and never forsaw the gigantic wall ahead,

I look back now, and only bow my head

Little by little my someone began to change, as did I

I resisted the change, as the time began to fly by

I was told words by another, that I hid for months mostly out of fear,

And those words would turn out to be something that took me very far from here

I was facing a new life ahead, growing up, and moving on to pursue my goals

A new chapter was on the horizon, and suddenly I realized my life was filled with giant holes

My someone suspected a change in me,

But mostly it was thought to be jealously

Each week that passed, I slipped further away

Lonely doesn’t even begin to describe the price I would have to pay

I fought it like crazy, making excuses, and shutting down

I didn’t tell my someone, because I felt like I was going to drown

The fights began, the hate built up, I felt more worthless each day

As the date approached, I packed my things, drove my car, and went away

My hands trembled as I steered the car, prescriptions on my side

I stopped, and began the plan, but soon realized I was running out of time

Just as I started, I jumped about a mile, and the cell phone began to ring

It was my someone, wondering where I had been

I did not answer, I had already made up my mind….

But my someone called again, and through the tears that splashed down my face

My heart slowed to a lower pace

No one else cared, but my someone did,

And so I made the decision right there and then

And prevented the biggest mistake that could have been

My someone talked to me as I walked in shaken and miserable and upset

“You need help, I will be there to hold your hand through this, but I am done reassuring you that we are ok” and then it was set….

I slapped a smile across my face as I walked across the stage,

My someone hugged me just moments before,

And I thought that had settled the score

Things were rocky weeks later, but better than before

But the hand I was promised never came my way

And soon I realized, that the because of my circumstances, I would have to pay

No it wasn’t fair, no, it wasn’t right, but I was caught in the middle of a war path, and had a lot to say

As I struggled to find myself, and give my life a second chance too

I was lied to and betrayed by the someone who said they would always be my “glue”

The glue that was supposed to keep me together,

Confronted me and beat me down as if I was as emotionless as a feather

I didn’t have a choice either way

I looked into my someone’s eyes and realized, we were breaking apart, and I would be the one to pay

The months went on, and we rebuilt steady and true

But that something from my someone was missing, and we both knew it, too

But still we trudged on, meeting the goals we set out to years ago

And little by little the phone calls and meetings started to glow

I felt the little spark again, and a piece of my broken heart began to mend like re-glued broken glass

Cracks and all, I thought we were gonna make it, we were gonna pass

I finally told my someone the truth, the words that were haunting me inside, my someone shed a tear, and a breakthrough was very near

A confrontation was needed, but challenging of course, I respected my someone’s choices and gave time to reduce the fear

And in the end, the confrontation was made, but the surprise to me,

Was that my someone decided to leave me behind…..my side, my someone could no longer see

The other side of the story was the way to go,

All intentions were never malicious, I was the one who interpreted it all wrong, because I was so low

And as I sat there, the piece of my heart that had begun to mend, suddenly broke in a million pieces right then and there

A part of me was broken forever, no one would be able to repair

I have asked myself why, and when, and who and how more times than I can count,

I have apologized and asked what I could have done differently before the fire went out

I stayed up nights trying to figure out why it all seemed so unfair, my someone was betrayed by many friends along the way

And now my someone did the same to me, there was not much left to say

You see, a someone can always be replaced, there are many someones out there for us all, I was replaced by a new someone, someone I didn’t expect at all

And I will always wonder if my someone has regrets, and although I know I stand by what I say

I think we both would go about doing things in a very different way

We all have someone’s come into and out of our lives for different reasons and in different ways, but the connection between my someone and I

Won’t be replaced---

It was a connection like no other, a never ending tie.

I went through every emtion; angry, upset, sad and depressed

There are no answers for some things in life, but I truly do wish my old someone the very best

In this life, lessons must be learned, some are harder than others as well

My other someones have taught me, how important I am, and that means more to me than I can tell

Remember your someones, more good memories than bad, and know that life is full of happy and sad

A part of me is scarred forever, a part of me is gone for now too

But I have been blessed and filled with happiness, a second chance at life,

And that is better than what any someone can do.

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