Excerpt

Trying it out....

"And she wasn't anyone famous, rather, she lead quite an ordinary life. Brown hair, green eyes, ringlets of curls fell over the top of her head. She grew up with a normal childhood, filled with friends, family, and every comfort she could ever want. Sensitive and a text book perfectionist by birth, she always cared more about others than she did about herself. She held herself to incredibly high standards, no room for failure, it was just not an option. She felt pressure, always, constantly, but hid it well. She never loved herself, not the way a person should love themselves, but everyone around her loved her. They are praised her and her accomplishments.... parents, her family, friends, teachers....she was the student that teachers practically begged for in their classes. A 4.0 grade point average and a handful of close friends were tattooed on her life, she lived her life by goals---report cards, perfect GPA's, perfect friendships, charity, graduating, passing college classes....no excelling in college classes, graduating college, following a career she had been chasing since she was seven years old. A smile on her face, miles and years of pain built up inside, that no one would understand. Guilt is a horrible thing to carry around. Never quite good enough, always the one to get hurt. Low self esteem takes its toll, but you are not aware of that until you have hit rock bottom. She hit rock bottom, quickly. She never saw it coming, and why would she, she had it all. How could this happen, why did this happen, how could no one see it? Her head was pounding, her hands were shaking, she was filled with fearful questions. No one saw it? Of course not, she was a great actress in her own life. Well, there was one person that saw it, but couldn't face it, did nothing, ran away. She thought, maybe she was better off to meet heaven, and hope she would be accepted up there, after all that had happened. How did she get here, she thought, how the hell, in this perfect life, with a kind hearted spirit, powerful sense of humor, spreading influence to children, touching lives unselfishly, how the hell did she get here? Her eyes starred back at her reflection, purple tears stained her face, and she had no idea what to do next."