After an absolutely beautiful, romantic, lovely evening being in the Perko-Brown wedding, I realized what commitment is all about. It not about the looks. It is not about the excitement. It is not about what you hide or show. It is about committing to the every day. It is about waking up each day, knowing each day will be different. Loving when you know sometimes the other person doesn't love themselves. It is about sharing a lifetime. It is about humor. It is about not wanting to change a thing. Accepting imperfections. It is about spending time with each other...forever. It is overwhelming, but the risk is so worth the reward. It was an emotional wedding for me. I mean, I always cry, but this was a different cry. A cry for happiness for friends, a cry for longing for me. I want that life, I want the the commitment to the everyday. The good and the bad. The ups and the downs. These two have taught me that even through the worst of times, the trying times, the disconnect, there are people who stay through it all. Not everyone runs. First relationships do last. They restore my faith in realistic love.
This song reminds me of what I will wait for. I don't know how long I will wait. I hope it is not too long. Today has been real struggle. I hold onto courage, and the strong, faithful, loyal group of wonderful friends that surround me in every moment, good or bad. The ones that didn't ever let me dance alone last night. The ones that believe I will find my husband one day, and the ones that will be standing up next me, on my wedding day, to represent all that they have meant to me.
And with this...I am off to try to enjoy my last week of summer vacation. Praying (yes you heard me right) that this kind of marriage and happiness comes to me one day soon. And wishing two dear friends, a lifetime of happiness.
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