Thanksgiving Thoughts

I woke up, in the warmth of the arms of another, who looks at me like I am all that matters in the whole world.

I woke up, to friends, best friends, telling me they are thankful for me, and how strong I am.

I woke up, to my family, getting ready for our thanksgiving feast, with babies, and aunts, uncles, cousins, loud laughter, and being together. 

I woke up to acceptance, and love, and fun. 

I woke up to breakfast in bed.

Life has a strange way of working out. I have found strength in places that I thought would forever be insecure. I have a strong body, and a strong mind, and the ability to influence those around me.

I am a confident, grateful, strong, committed woman, passionate about those I love in my life.

I have standards, and will not accept anything less than being treated the very best. With respect, and acceptance, love, and commitment. 

I am committed to sharing my life experience, my life lessons, my passion with those around me, so they too know, that hurt does not last forever, and strength will find you when you least expect it.

I no longer waste time on those who run...life is not about running, but about staying, and appreciating. There will always be those who run, who cannot commit, who try to take back what has been done, but some paths are just paved in fate, what is meant to be, will be, and once you run off a particular path, you cannot return. My path changed this year, uunexpectedly, and  while I tried for a long time to get back on, I realized the path had ended. There was no more road. Only gravel, dust, and memories. 

And so I wake up on this Thanksgiving morning, on a new path, paved just by me, paved with answers and my future, a family, kids, a new career, a new relationship blossoming....and how thankful I truly am on this beautiful morning. 

To life. To holding on. To never settling. To accepting what is meant to be. To angels watching over me.      

GOOD IN GOODBYE

My two favorite jams right now. One by Beyonce, very vindictive, angry, but empowering, the other, by Carrie Underwood, softer, lighter, but the message remains the same. While it may hurt, while it may tear you apart, one day, sooner rather than later, you will find the GOOD in GOODBYE. It will come in pieces, little bites of insight, and you will one day, understand the reasons why.

BEYONCE

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
I say what goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around...

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I must've been out of my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus:]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
'Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
You turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
And I'm gonna' always be the (best thing you never had)
Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus:]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
I said, you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
And I'll never be the (best thing you never had)
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye.

[Chorus:]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
Oh you turned out to be (the best thing I never had)
And I will always be the (best thing you never had)
Oh, best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
Oh you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
Oh, I will never be the (best thing you never had)
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

What goes around, comes back around
What goes around, comes back around
I bet it sucks to be you right now
What goes around, comes back around
I bet it sucks to be you right now
What goes around, comes back around
I bet it sucks to be you right now! 

CARRIE

I heard you laughing in a crowd outside a restaurant we used to go to
I caught a glimpse that stopped me in my tracks
It took me back
You looked happy with that little girl up on your shoulders, happy
I know where she got those crystal eyes of blue
Time’s been sweet to you

[Chorus:]
As bad as it was, as bad as it hurt
I thank God I didn’t get what I thought that I deserved
Sometimes life leads you down a different road
When you’re holding on to someone that you gotta let go
Someday you’ll see the reason why
Sometimes, yeah, sometimes, there’s good in goodbye

I don’t regret it
The time we had together
I won’t forget it
But we both ended up where we belong
I guess goodbye made us strong
And yeah I’m happy
I found somebody too who makes me happy
And I knew one day I’ll see you on the street
And it’d be bittersweet

[Chorus:]
But as bad as it was, as bad as it hurt
I thank God I didn’t get what I thought that I deserved
Sometimes life leads you down a different road
When you’re holding on to someone that you gotta let go
Someday you’ll see the reason why
Yeah, sometimes, yeah sometimes, there’s good in goodbye
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Outro:]
As bad as it was, yeah, as bad as it hurt
I thank God I didn’t get what I thought that I deserved
Sometimes life leads you down a different road
When you’re holding on to someone that you got to let go
Someday you’ll see the reason why
Yeah, someday you’ll see the reason why
There’s good in goodbye, yeah
Yeah

There's good in goodbye, mmm  

Quote For The New Office

When I get my new job I am blowing this up on the wall: how beautifully worded.
I am so lucky to have people who have been there for me, decided to stay, and not run.
I will instill hope in others, that they too, can feel the love of friendship during their darkness. 
Empowerment.
Change.
Bravery.
Hope.