Sunday, February 24, 2013
Renewal
Hawaii was amazing. Sun. Great friends. Beautiful environment. Family. Beaches. Water. Just gorgeous. I cannot wait to make my scrap book. It was one of the best week of my life. Renewal. Stress free. Spending time with people who mean the most to me.
And through this renewal, gorgeous scenery, and perfect vacation brought me home to fresh new look on life. It has brought me back to a new relationship that I am so excited about. It has brought me home to realize my confidence. It has brought me the realization that I have no time for people who don't have time for me, or need to look at their calendar to schedule me in. I am sensitive, sometimes to a fault, but I care very much about my relationships, friendships, and priorities. Everyone has different priorities and spends their time in the way they choose. I have always let jealously get in the way of my relationships, no longer. I make time for those who make time for me, and don't go out of my way for those who don't. I have ruined relationships and have been hurt very badly when I care too much about other's choices. I live my life for me and those who are closest to me and make time for me. And if that isn't confidence, I don't know what is.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Hawaii and Happiness
Tomorrow morning I am off to Hawaii for my best friend's wedding, flying down with my other best friend
Valentines day was so so special. I got flowers sent to work. No one has ever done that for me before. I love surprises. And I love how my whole school, teachers and students, were envious:) I went out to a beautifully romantic dinner to cap off the wonderful day.
These past two weeks have provided so much clarity for me. So much peace, happiness, self-assurance. I just hope it doesn't get taken away. I am nervous, but optimistic. Cautious but beaming with happiness. I love feeling connection.
I am going on this trip with my head held high. A gift to myself to spend time with friends, in wonderful weather, celebrating a wonderful occasion. No vacation in almost 3 years. It is a true gift to myself. A gift for finishing my Master's Degree, being strong throughout the past year, entering and exiting different relationships, and finally finding a man, with good, deep, promising potential. A man that I can spend hours talking to, that I look forward to seeing each time we meet, that makes me laugh, that is educated, and family oriented, funny, and kind, romantic, and so smart. I have not had this feeling before. Time will tell. But it feels good.
I feel confident. I feel that my relationship with my family is the safest and best it has been in a long time.
I have committed to a healthier lifestyle, one step at a time, slowly accepting myself and continuing to learn about myself.
Here's to a great trip, with the best of friends, coming home to a wonderful life!
Valentines day was so so special. I got flowers sent to work. No one has ever done that for me before. I love surprises. And I love how my whole school, teachers and students, were envious:) I went out to a beautifully romantic dinner to cap off the wonderful day.
I am going on this trip with my head held high. A gift to myself to spend time with friends, in wonderful weather, celebrating a wonderful occasion. No vacation in almost 3 years. It is a true gift to myself. A gift for finishing my Master's Degree, being strong throughout the past year, entering and exiting different relationships, and finally finding a man, with good, deep, promising potential. A man that I can spend hours talking to, that I look forward to seeing each time we meet, that makes me laugh, that is educated, and family oriented, funny, and kind, romantic, and so smart. I have not had this feeling before. Time will tell. But it feels good.
I feel confident. I feel that my relationship with my family is the safest and best it has been in a long time.
I have committed to a healthier lifestyle, one step at a time, slowly accepting myself and continuing to learn about myself.
Here's to a great trip, with the best of friends, coming home to a wonderful life!
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
A Beautiful Journey
My life, thus far, has been a crazy, but beautiful journey.
What I know so far is that it is ok to be emotional; it does not mean I am broken.
It is ok to let others in; they won't all run away; the good ones always stay.
My sense of humor is one of my best qualities; I value laughter in others, and making others laugh.
I am loyal, honest, sincere; and I expect the same from my relationships.
I have different types of relationships and friendships in my life; they all play an integral part.
Fighting with my family does not mean I don't love them; it just means I am trying to find myself as a individual in the midst of a family unit.
I love learning, and growing, and learning about myself; it is not always easy, but it has proven to be worth it.
People have come into and out of my life; and have taught me very specific lessons.
My heart has been broken; but that also means I taken the risk to love deeply.
I am surrounded by beautiful relationships, wonderful friendships, and fantastic memories; I hold them close.
And recently, I have found a new connection to a man, that while very, very early, it is the kind of connection that puts butterflies in your stomach. The kind of connection that keeps you looking forward to your next conversation, the next time you can see each other. The kind of person that with each conversation you find more and more in common with each other. The kind of man that is a professional, family oriented, funny, smart, caring, supportive, and to know all this, after only a short time, it's just a gut feeling...a gut feeling of happiness, contentment, of excitement for possibility.
And with that, I anxiously await Friday night:)
What I know so far is that it is ok to be emotional; it does not mean I am broken.
It is ok to let others in; they won't all run away; the good ones always stay.
My sense of humor is one of my best qualities; I value laughter in others, and making others laugh.
I am loyal, honest, sincere; and I expect the same from my relationships.
I have different types of relationships and friendships in my life; they all play an integral part.
Fighting with my family does not mean I don't love them; it just means I am trying to find myself as a individual in the midst of a family unit.
I love learning, and growing, and learning about myself; it is not always easy, but it has proven to be worth it.
People have come into and out of my life; and have taught me very specific lessons.
My heart has been broken; but that also means I taken the risk to love deeply.
I am surrounded by beautiful relationships, wonderful friendships, and fantastic memories; I hold them close.
And recently, I have found a new connection to a man, that while very, very early, it is the kind of connection that puts butterflies in your stomach. The kind of connection that keeps you looking forward to your next conversation, the next time you can see each other. The kind of person that with each conversation you find more and more in common with each other. The kind of man that is a professional, family oriented, funny, smart, caring, supportive, and to know all this, after only a short time, it's just a gut feeling...a gut feeling of happiness, contentment, of excitement for possibility.
And with that, I anxiously await Friday night:)
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